Bring your consciousness back home
Many people I know describe their childhood as happy, peaceful, safe and secure.
For me, my childhood was a lonely, difficult place, heavily loaded with too many questions and very few answers.
Don't get me wrong - I was surrounded by a beautiful family, loving friendships and was blessed with many talents, but inside my mind I was scared and wondering. I felt a mystic longing towards an unknown being.
From an early age I asked existential questions -
Who am I in the world? What is my role? Why do people act the way they do? Why do I feel what I feel? What is occurring inside my head? What is occurring inside my body? What is the meaning of this life?
At 13, following a deep crisis in my personal life, I obsessively began searching for answers. My basic life experience was of distress, guilt and suffering. I was young, afraid and felt there is no person in my world that could help me. I had a strong yearning for knowledge that would help me deal with fears, anxieties, difficulty and discomfort and searched any piece of information that would help me understand the meaning of life, that would help me understand something about myself, about the world, that would help me survive.
I turned to modern psychology, delved into classic philosophy, moved on to Western philosophy, read poetry, absorbed any study, thesis, quotation, concept, expression, interpretation or insight.
I made myself into a loyal autodidact student, with inexhaustible curiosity and an existential need in dismantling the concept called "life”.
At 18, during my military service as a combat soldier, I conducted a survey among my close surroundings: I asked them what they found to be the most significant thing in life. 99% of them answered - love – on its various forms. Only my grandmother, Naomi Levi (her memory be blessed), who was the eldest and most experienced among the people I had asked, and an exceptional woman in herself, answered simply – that from her experience, the most important thing in life is complete peace with one’s self. My grandmother's answer had led me, back in those days, to go on a fascinating journey of exploration inspired by this concept.
How at peace am I with myself? Am I willing to come to peace with my past? With my present? What is the gap between my will to be completely perfect and my will to be at peace? What is a peaceful faith?
At 26 my path led me to a significant point in achieving my destiny – Emotion School of Listening, Being and Transformation and Satya Method, and encountered me with an inspiring teacher – Natalie Ben David.
At the age of 30, I've experienced a powerful mystical event, that influenced my entire life - I've met God.
I finally remembered and acknowledged the fact that God is the mysterious entity I have longed for all my life. Reconnecting with God brought me back to a place of pure love, unity, simplicity and joy. Believing in God's unending love and compassion has finally brought me peace. Thank God!
Over the years since, my conversations with God have led me to be exposed to the amazing wisdom of Israeli Torah, and to be fascinated by the Bible's inner secrets.
Along with my private studies of Torah, Kabbalah, and theories of physics, philosophy, and psychology, God has opened for me a gateway to a rich and fascinating world of exploration, observation, and listening.
I believe that the main purpose in life is to know God, to create a conversation with god and feel his endless love.
I believe that god wants only the best for us.
I believe that the greatest gift that we can receive in this life is – to know ourselves and to know god, who hides deep within us.
I believe that when we learn to develop internal listening – to our breathing, sensations, feelings, thoughts, beliefs, to the voice of god within us – we receive the opportunity to discover our freedom.
I believe that the point of awakening, letting go, and resilience in life, forever exists in the present, at this moment. I believe that being attentive to our breathing is the key to being present at this moment. I believe that god's presents are waiting to be revealed in our present moment.
I believe that the Bible is created by god. I believe that the Bible is our guiding book, teaching us how to reveal god's secret wisdom.
I believe in the greatness of God. I believe that our greatest fear is not that of failing but rather that we will realise our ever-greatness, being born in God image.
I believe that self respect, inner cleanliness and integrity are an essential condition for succeeding in any field in which we wish to develop.
I believe that an inner child exists in each of us, a child wanting to be listened to, to be nurtured, touched, wishing for a space to cry, to laugh, a safe and compassionate space. We are all looking for god's love and god's intimate devotion.
I believe that love, happiness, compassion and gratitude are the main gates for healing and development.
I believe that we are all - ONE.
We, humans, invest the majority of our time and money developing our careers, planning our futures, our hairstyles, designing our apartments, the clothes we wear, our possessions, our achievements and in chasing after what we believe we should have. Our lives are filled with noise, illusions, distractions, temptations, addictions, moments of highs and lows.
How often in our lives do we stop and allow ourselves the time and space to invest in training our faith?
In practising our gratitude?
In training our happiness?
In designing our being?
In observing deep into the secrets of the creation?
Are we fulfilled with our lives?
Do we know what is our purpose?
Do I know who is God?
Through the process, I invite you to a joint observation of the questions that will arise, in this fascinating journey, called your life. I will be there to listen attentively, ask questions, observe and reflect and to help you become closer to yourself, closer to god, to choose your loves and to love your choices.
We often allow our lives to pass by like a movie, while we sit as bitter spectators, munching popcorn. I invite you to rise from your seat, and go meet the one who runs the whole show.
Though I am not promising you any results or specific outcomes, but I can offer you a partnership with the main producer, casting director, director, and screen-writer - who is God.
If you ask me, I see it as a deal worthwhile.
How about you?
There are some books that were revolutionary in my personal life from which I drew inspiration, and I have chosen to share this information with you, if you are interested.
The Bible \ The greatest book of all
Loving What Is \ Byron Katie
Coincidences: Clues from the Universe \ Deepak Chopra
The Four Agreements \ Don Miguel Ruiz
Zero Limits \ Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len
You Can Heal Your Life \ Louise L. Hay
A Return To Love \ Marianne Williamson
Conversations with God \ Neale Donald Walsch
Anatomy of Your Soul \ Dr. Carolyn Myss
Here are some inspiring links I like to watch from time to time - enjoy!
Questions? Contact me
I live in Tel Aviv, Israel.